It’s been 10 days…
… since my last entry and to tell you the truth we have done absolutely nothing.
It’s the school holidays still and Paul is still unemployed. So we have had very limited funds which means staying at home doing nothing.
I have come to a realisation though with Paul being unemployed, might not be this factor but I think it is, everyone has dropped off our radar. No one talks to us, phones, comes round or even online. I mean it’s like we have all grown this big ugly 20th head or something and no one cares anymore.
I think the reason this is happend too is because I was the one always doing the calling and organising and everything else. Are people that lazy they can’t pick up the phone or chat online anymore. I mean you all have time for games and shit on facebook and everyone else, but not to talk to friends or family. It’s a real shame.
Maybe I am reading too much into this, but I honestly don’t think I am. So I have come to the conclusion that I don’t care any more and as I have said to many people. I live in my own little world down here in my home. You know where I am so you can find me if need be, which we know that will never be.
So in the meantime I am happy with the peace and quiet, the not being used and abused, expected to do things for others with nothing in return, not even a thanks. Times are changing and so am I. No more me being about everyone else.. now its me being about me.
2010 is a new year and it’s going to be about changes.
Bring em on I say!
Written by Lisa Harman - 
Hmm, maybe ‘those’ people whomever they are aren’t worth being ‘friends’, or worthy of holding the title of being your ‘friend’.
Do you think though that maybe some people have stayed away to let you and Paul have time with one another seeing as he was away so much with work last year?
Unfortunately friendship/communication does go both ways and some people dont see it like that…. we all get that though sis, only a phone call when someone wants something for themselves with no thanks or kiss my arse in return….
Life throws curveballs… this is just one. You’ll get through it, even if it is with that 20th head you’re growing… (wondered what that ‘thing’ was growing off your shoulder the other day lol)
Be strong.
Hi Lisa, Ive found you, now wheres this atc? hehehe i will be back to see it later now that i know where you are, Jaqi